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Nine Confessions Of A Skinny Girl
1.
The difference between being thin and being skinny
is that when you’re skinny,
everyone is constantly trying to get you to eat.
As if you are deliberately starving yourself.
As if they are soldiers
and you are a war they must win,
food instead of guns in their hands.
2.
Seven years ago, when I first realised
that I couldn’t sleep on my side anymore
because my hipbones cut like knives into my skin,
that I could count every single one of my ribs,
I ate everything I found in the fridge till I threw up,
and my mother assumed I was doing it on purpose.
It took me three sessions of intensive therapy
to convince the therapist that I wasn’t sick
when honestly, I wasn’t sure myself anymore.
3.  
Girls who look in the mirror
and see a collection of bones
and stories and thigh gaps and brittle wrists
are called beautiful in magazines,
so why do I only see hollow eyes and skin
that is just barely stretched over a skeletal frame?
4.
The first time a boy grasped my wr
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I'm doing very bad mentally at the moment, I'm having a massive family feud, I'm financially in the hole (I put up a link to my PayPal on my page as always making a gofundme link. I feel terrible in asking people if they can possibly help me. I don't like doing that. I am suffering financially.) and now I'm not feeling well at all. I got told by my doctor to take prednisolone, antihistamine tablets and nasal spray. I have to take my inhaler for two puffs for four times a day as well. Of course only the prednisolone was covered underneath my health care card, so the rest was full price. $38.80. That was money I couldn't afford to spend but now I have had to spend it. I hate being poor so much and I hate being unwell. When I stop taking the prednisolone I'm going to be sent for a long function test. My ears are very red inside and I have swollen tonsils. My doctor thinks I might need to have my tonsils out as well. I must have been a very shitty person in the past life, because I just cannot catch a break.
Excuse me while I cry in the corner.

Bonus: My neighbor seems to think that just because my door is open slightly that it is an excuse to come and talk to me through the screen. (I need the heavy wooden door open slightly so my air conditioner works properly.) She annoys the crap out of me. Have some respect.
In December I fell ill with what I thougnt was bronchitis. It took me nearly a month to recover and my doctor had a chest x-ray and blood test done to check i did not have pneumonia. The tests said I had a very nasty virus, but thankfully not pneumonia. My doctor said four to six weeks after I recover he wants to send me for a lung function test.
Should I be worried about that? That at 29 he wants that?
I have noticed it doesn't take me long to get breathless. I suspect that something is wrong along with my weight.
I feel hollow, empty, broken. No one seems to care how I feel or what I want. I want to cry but I can't. Only little tears come out. I am hurt real bad.
Money troubles continue to plague me but the worst troubles are with my family.
I just want to run away and never look back. No one would miss me as far as family is concerned.
I just want to be loved, but I guess that is too much to ask.
Ultimatums are chucked at me and I do not know what to do anymore.
I cannot distract myself because I cannot focus.
I hate my life.
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I'm a twenty-seven year old from Australia. I'm kind hearted but with a fiery temper. I like to roleplay, but my standards are high.
I love rock and metal music.
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I feel hollow, empty, broken. No one seems to care how I feel or what I want. I want to cry but I can't. Only little tears come out. I am hurt real bad.
Money troubles continue to plague me but the worst troubles are with my family.
I just want to run away and never look back. No one would miss me as far as family is concerned.
I just want to be loved, but I guess that is too much to ask.
Ultimatums are chucked at me and I do not know what to do anymore.
I cannot distract myself because I cannot focus.
I hate my life.

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DragnBoi65 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
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MelTheMemeQueen Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2018
Awesome!
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DragnBoi65 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I know, right? ^^
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MelTheMemeQueen Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2018
Mhm! :)
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SpaniardWithKnives Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy New Year to ya!:la:
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MelTheMemeQueen Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2018
Happy New Year! How have you been??? :la:
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SpaniardWithKnives Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
:la:.Busy,but that is good. I have been out for months ugh, lol
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MelTheMemeQueen Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2018
How have those busy months been? :)
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jameycakeshotty Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Han Mushkay! I hope you are doing well! :hug: :heart:
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MelTheMemeQueen Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2017
I am still in the weeds, but I am doing a little better. How are you? :hug: :heart:
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